i feel like i'm stuck and I'm not going anywhere.
i don't want to feel like i'll never be good enough, like i have failed in life, like I'm running on empty, like i cant make things right, like no one will ever love me.
I don't want to feel this way anymore.
i want my confidence back. i want to feel safe and secure with my friends. i don't want to think about the past anymore
I don't want to feel like this. I HATE IT! I HATE IT! I HATE IT!
I went back to read some e-mails that i got from sheen and they were sooo cute and i want him back. I want someone like sheen. he was so nice and cute and i made him nervous and he made me feel the same way. he was truly amazing! i want to find someone like him again!
i deserve someone like him.
i was an idiot for letting him go. i was an idiot for thinking about tyler when i was talking to sheen.
i can't see the big picture. all i can do is move forward do my best and know that heavenly father will lift my burdens and i will see the purpose for my trials.
goodnight its 1:42 am